La vida es facil (Life is easy). We are born in this world with people taking care of us until we are about 18 years old (on average). Then if we play our cards right and are lucky to live long enough, people take care of us when we are old. In between is where the discrepancy lies. If you live right, you can get people to take care of you; to guide and support you. If not, you are on your own and life becomes difficult.
People are rude. They do things for themselves with nobody else in regards. Life to them is all about making themselves better, it is for their gain. They will use you in many ways. They call it "Use and Abuse" and that is what it implies. Some do not care about your well being while others may pretend. What is the meaning of living like that if all you do is use people and hurt them? I never understood the concept of cheating on someone you love, especially in marriage. Either way, it is horrible, but the person who you say "I do" to is just wrong. With your vows, you pledge to love and cherish them forever. You are saying to everyone in the world that out of them, you chose one certain person. That means there is nobody else out there better than that one person. So why cheat if you could not get anyone better?
Marriage is not what it used to be. It is not sacred as it is supposed to be. People fall in and out of love quickly and then you have those who get married because they are afraid to spend life alone. Others rush to marriage because of the benefits of it such as raising a family, monetary benefits, and the such. Even nowadays, you do not have to be married to have children. People just do not seem to believe in marriage before sex anymore. Some people will marry because it is what they are "supposed to do" at a certain part of their life.
Another thing I do not understand is why people date someone if you have no intentions of one day getting married to that person. Maybe because I am older now that I think this way, but is not the whole point of dating to find that someone who can be with the rest of your life? With many people today, they date so they can have the "benefits" of a relationship and we all know what I mean by "benefits." Today's society, we do what we want without ever having to be in a relationship. We can make out, fool around, or have sex without thinking twice about it. To us, its okay, we will not have a guilty conscience and we will not have to worry about strings being attached.
Well, I tell you what, it is not okay. This is why our society is so screwed up as it is. People do things out of their own will with only themselves in mind. They do not do God's will. They do not care about their sister or their brother. They are only living for todays and not tomorrow's satisfaction.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Ramblin Thoughts...Pt. 3
People are mean. They do things for their own sake and do not care who they hurt as long as they get what they want. They say things that really hit home only to make themselves feel better. In all actuality, it comes from their insecurities, but still who do you think you are?
How do we grow up in the same house with the same parents and the same things but still turn out so different? My oldest sister is short tempered, speaks what is on her mind, and has a beautiful baby boy. She is very caring and a beautiful person, but she needs to believe that herself. My brother and I shared a womb for 9 months, you would think we would be similar, but we are not. He is too short tempered, believes he can get what he wants when he wants. He is demanding and most of the times, he is lazy. He finally went back to college after dropping out for a year. He used to be a druggie (hopefully, he is done with that), he likes his booze, cigarettes, and chewing tobacco. But whenever you get that nice, loving kid out of him, it is a beautiful scene that you want to hold on to forever for those times he is not. My younger sister is of course the baby of the family. She is very sensitive and cannot withstand someone yelling at her without crying. She expects to get what she wants as well. I guess you could say she is part of the "preppy" crowd at school. She hangs out with all the cool kids. She is very worried about other people's judgments, but she is a very smart person.
Then, that leaves me! I used to be like all of them and more. I was very very short tempered, didn't really care for anyone, did what I wanted and was pretty much a mean kid. Then I began to change. I realized that swearing just made me look stupid. I couldn't believe some of the words coming out of my mouth. I began to pray for it to stop and it eventually did. So I said to myself, if God could help me control my swearing, then maybe he could help me control my temper. Sure enough, I got that under control. Then I got to thinking that this God is very powerful and boy did he sure change my life. He saved ME! I owe everything to Him. I started praying every night. Granted, I had grown up in church, but I think it really depends on whether or not you can find God yourself instead of it being shoved down your throat.
SO my life started drastically changing and it is what sets me apart from the rest of my family, and it always became the subject of many arguments. "Well, we're sorry we are not angels like you!" or "Don't think you are holier than thou." It was only because I tried to diffuse the situation, but every time phrases like this would be directed at me, I would cower and back away. GOD IS AMAZING. He pulled me through those rough couple years, then if just all started to fall in place. I was given wonderful people in my life that made me look forward to getting up in the morning just so I could see them. Now, He has given me wonderful opportunities to succeed. He still strategically puts people in my life that continually make me happy.
Life is a blessing and should be embraced with every passing second. Every laugh should be remembered, every tear cried should be cherished, every hug needs to be embraced, every person be accepted, and every life should be loved because we do not know how it will affect us or change us. We just do not know
What is the purpose of life? What is the meaning? Do we know the answer to either of those questions. Time is like a fleeting thought, quickly it will be gone. Life is like the footprints in the sand, soon to be taken away by the crashing waves.
We are all part of a bigger story
How do we grow up in the same house with the same parents and the same things but still turn out so different? My oldest sister is short tempered, speaks what is on her mind, and has a beautiful baby boy. She is very caring and a beautiful person, but she needs to believe that herself. My brother and I shared a womb for 9 months, you would think we would be similar, but we are not. He is too short tempered, believes he can get what he wants when he wants. He is demanding and most of the times, he is lazy. He finally went back to college after dropping out for a year. He used to be a druggie (hopefully, he is done with that), he likes his booze, cigarettes, and chewing tobacco. But whenever you get that nice, loving kid out of him, it is a beautiful scene that you want to hold on to forever for those times he is not. My younger sister is of course the baby of the family. She is very sensitive and cannot withstand someone yelling at her without crying. She expects to get what she wants as well. I guess you could say she is part of the "preppy" crowd at school. She hangs out with all the cool kids. She is very worried about other people's judgments, but she is a very smart person.
Then, that leaves me! I used to be like all of them and more. I was very very short tempered, didn't really care for anyone, did what I wanted and was pretty much a mean kid. Then I began to change. I realized that swearing just made me look stupid. I couldn't believe some of the words coming out of my mouth. I began to pray for it to stop and it eventually did. So I said to myself, if God could help me control my swearing, then maybe he could help me control my temper. Sure enough, I got that under control. Then I got to thinking that this God is very powerful and boy did he sure change my life. He saved ME! I owe everything to Him. I started praying every night. Granted, I had grown up in church, but I think it really depends on whether or not you can find God yourself instead of it being shoved down your throat.
SO my life started drastically changing and it is what sets me apart from the rest of my family, and it always became the subject of many arguments. "Well, we're sorry we are not angels like you!" or "Don't think you are holier than thou." It was only because I tried to diffuse the situation, but every time phrases like this would be directed at me, I would cower and back away. GOD IS AMAZING. He pulled me through those rough couple years, then if just all started to fall in place. I was given wonderful people in my life that made me look forward to getting up in the morning just so I could see them. Now, He has given me wonderful opportunities to succeed. He still strategically puts people in my life that continually make me happy.
Life is a blessing and should be embraced with every passing second. Every laugh should be remembered, every tear cried should be cherished, every hug needs to be embraced, every person be accepted, and every life should be loved because we do not know how it will affect us or change us. We just do not know
What is the purpose of life? What is the meaning? Do we know the answer to either of those questions. Time is like a fleeting thought, quickly it will be gone. Life is like the footprints in the sand, soon to be taken away by the crashing waves.
We are all part of a bigger story
Ramblin Thoughts...Pt. 2
What is the point of life? Is it to be a good daughter, to be a best friend, to fall in love with a man, to laugh with all your heart, to find your wandering soul? Is it to give a puppy a bath while struggling to keep her in the tub or giving your nephew a piggy back ride? Is life a set of rules to live by so there remains order and reason or is it to live spontaneously, taking one day at a time and taking risks?
I have been sitting on the backburner for years. I have lived a life to please others, so they can be happy. Granted, I have found great happiness through doing this, but at the same time I feel like I have not lived life yet. I have been too conservative. I have lived to please others, to be a good student, and to keep everyone thinking good things about me. I just want to know what it is like to fail. To not care about what grade I will get in a class, to not have a care in the world about making a living, working for money, and more. I live a life that I do not know if I like anymore. Do not get me wrong, I absolutely love life, but I am tired of living a lie. I just want to be myself, not someone everyone else wants me to be. I don't want to be afraid to cry in front of others, to scream whenever I am angry, to pout when I don't get my way, to love without judgment and to dance in jubilee whenever I am happy.
What happened to life? How did I get here? Yes, it comes from the decisions I made throughout the years, but what helped me along the way. Just the other day, I was five years old, missing a front tooth, hair in a pony tail off to the side and running around the yard barefoot with the sun shining down on me. Now, I am here, thankfully with all teeth intact, hair lying on my shoulders, in a place full of sand and heat with 20 years passed by. Kenny Chesney said it best with his song "Don't Blink." You literally have to live life with your eyes wide open so you do not miss anything or wake up one morning wondering where life went
Is there life out there? I have led a pretty sheltered life. I grew up with a loving family in a town with little diversity in the middle of the woods. I have never experienced the heartbreak of a true love. I have never kissed anybody or really fell in love. I have not sworn in years and have not had a soda in 2 ½ years. The only thing I can say for myself right now is that I chose to go 2200 miles away from home and everything I had ever known to seek a new start. But was it really a new start since I settled back into my old habits? Sure! I have met new friends, have had great experiences. I have learned a lot about myself but I am still that same old girl who sits in the front row of class with her hair slicked back in a ponytail trying to please everyone and impress the teacher into thinking I am someone unique. I try to stand out among my peers, try to be the one face in the crowd that everyone will remember. But whom am I kidding? I am just lost in as sea of faces where I might be remembered today, but tomorrow someone will replace me.
Who are you to tell me who I am? I am me. I am a girl who can eat too much if she is lonely, sad, or menstruating. I laugh too much and don't cry enough. I am not a beggar, I am not poor. I also am not rich. I'm not popular, a druggie, an alcoholic, a punk, a snob, a witch (with a B J), a jerk, or a prick. I'm too sensitive, stubborn, hardheaded, easy going, full of love, and light hearted. I am a hopeless romantic, a slob, a neat freak, an adventurer, a reader, a poet, and a fruitcake. Most importantly, I AM ME!!!!
I've made decisions to get to where I am and who I am today. And you know what? I don't think I would change anyone of them, because then I wouldn't be who I am. I may be imperfect, but it's okay. I've got family and friends that love me for who I am. Someday, I will too find that one person who will want to be with me for the rest of his life, who will love me for me
I am the Lamb of God, His Servant, and I will Dwell in the House of the Lord Forever.
I have been sitting on the backburner for years. I have lived a life to please others, so they can be happy. Granted, I have found great happiness through doing this, but at the same time I feel like I have not lived life yet. I have been too conservative. I have lived to please others, to be a good student, and to keep everyone thinking good things about me. I just want to know what it is like to fail. To not care about what grade I will get in a class, to not have a care in the world about making a living, working for money, and more. I live a life that I do not know if I like anymore. Do not get me wrong, I absolutely love life, but I am tired of living a lie. I just want to be myself, not someone everyone else wants me to be. I don't want to be afraid to cry in front of others, to scream whenever I am angry, to pout when I don't get my way, to love without judgment and to dance in jubilee whenever I am happy.
What happened to life? How did I get here? Yes, it comes from the decisions I made throughout the years, but what helped me along the way. Just the other day, I was five years old, missing a front tooth, hair in a pony tail off to the side and running around the yard barefoot with the sun shining down on me. Now, I am here, thankfully with all teeth intact, hair lying on my shoulders, in a place full of sand and heat with 20 years passed by. Kenny Chesney said it best with his song "Don't Blink." You literally have to live life with your eyes wide open so you do not miss anything or wake up one morning wondering where life went
Is there life out there? I have led a pretty sheltered life. I grew up with a loving family in a town with little diversity in the middle of the woods. I have never experienced the heartbreak of a true love. I have never kissed anybody or really fell in love. I have not sworn in years and have not had a soda in 2 ½ years. The only thing I can say for myself right now is that I chose to go 2200 miles away from home and everything I had ever known to seek a new start. But was it really a new start since I settled back into my old habits? Sure! I have met new friends, have had great experiences. I have learned a lot about myself but I am still that same old girl who sits in the front row of class with her hair slicked back in a ponytail trying to please everyone and impress the teacher into thinking I am someone unique. I try to stand out among my peers, try to be the one face in the crowd that everyone will remember. But whom am I kidding? I am just lost in as sea of faces where I might be remembered today, but tomorrow someone will replace me.
Who are you to tell me who I am? I am me. I am a girl who can eat too much if she is lonely, sad, or menstruating. I laugh too much and don't cry enough. I am not a beggar, I am not poor. I also am not rich. I'm not popular, a druggie, an alcoholic, a punk, a snob, a witch (with a B J), a jerk, or a prick. I'm too sensitive, stubborn, hardheaded, easy going, full of love, and light hearted. I am a hopeless romantic, a slob, a neat freak, an adventurer, a reader, a poet, and a fruitcake. Most importantly, I AM ME!!!!
I've made decisions to get to where I am and who I am today. And you know what? I don't think I would change anyone of them, because then I wouldn't be who I am. I may be imperfect, but it's okay. I've got family and friends that love me for who I am. Someday, I will too find that one person who will want to be with me for the rest of his life, who will love me for me
I am the Lamb of God, His Servant, and I will Dwell in the House of the Lord Forever.
Ramblin Thoughts of the (Once) Teenage Mind...Pt. 1
I wrote these a while ago (last semester), but am now just putting them on this blog. Enjoy
Wow...the things I have thought about these past couple of days I don't know what is provoking these thoughts. I have been really stressed these past few weeks with exams, papers, work, track, and just life in general. Let me start with my dream. I dreamt that I had just up and left school. I showed up unexpectedly and told my family I quit school here and wanted to attend somewhere closer to home. However, when i got home, I immediately began worrying about NMSU. I knew I had made the wrong choice and I was looking for an excuse to get back down here
I'm not alright, I'm broken inside. I cannot wait to go home and be out of school, but the other part of me wants to be here and not leave what I have established. I guess I am just frightened about the future now that the future is creeping on my doorstep. I have created a new beginning down here and have made wonderful friends, but I know I cannot keep living like this, "a student in college who fills her time with work, school, and practice. A girl who cannot wait to get back home to be with her family and friends, but is afraid to leave her new ones. A student who cannot possibly dream of a life outside of school. Someone who is afraid to live because she does not want to get hurt but who lives to love and laugh. A roommate who is too shy to talk to the girl she is living with because she is worried about what to say. A sister who has not done too good of a job being there for her siblings or a daughter who is caught up with her own life to worry about her parents. An employee who works too much that she does not make enough time to be with the people she loves. A fat kid who eats uncontrollably even though she is learning to do otherwise. A hypocrite whenever she tells others ways to take control of their lives when she cannot even control her own. A lost soul who asks for guidance everyday because she cannot seem to walk a straight path. A girl who is happy and carefree, but torn apart inside. An open heart that yearns for a man to love her the way she would love him. A GIRL LIKE ME." I have been a terrible daughter, sister, friend, roommate and Christian.
My roommate recently broke up with her boyfriend. Tonight, she came in with another friend of hers, sick as a dog. Her friend told me she was drinking and starting getting upset about her ex. All I could do was sit on the couch while she lay on the floor of the bathroom puking her guts out into the toilet as her friend held her hair and consoled her. I want to be that type of friend. I have not had a friend close enough that I could do that for. I know Tori and I are great friends and I know how I say that it does not matter that she is much older than I am, but our relationship is too perfect. We never argue, I never get mad at her just to forgive her the next day. I do not think she gets mad at me, at least she never says she does. I know Kara and I are also great friends as well. I really like her and it seems like the friendship I have always wanted, but I do not know if she feels the same. She and Tori are two of my best friends. I can do things with Kara that nobody would even begin to understand. We goof off and have fun and we understand each other. However, there are things that I do not tell them, or anybody for that matter. I want to be able to tell someone all my thoughts, dreams, and deepest secrets. I feel like I can do most of this with the two, but am too afraid to say it all for fear of judgment.
Life is cruel! Once you think you have everything planned out, it changes on you. I have been waiting for a long time now to fall in love. I want to meet a tall, handsome, nice, active man who will want me for me (I know, I know….wishful thinking). Every guy I meet I cannot help but thing "Are you the one?" I am a hopeless romantic. Beggars cannot be choosers right? Well then why am I so picky on who I want to date after all these years of just begging for it to be anyone. Am I pathetic or what? I am 20 years old, never been kissed, let alone gone out on a date with any guy. Am I that repulsive? Do I not attract the guys I am looking for? These dating websites are all a lie. Everyone is there for the same reason: to see whom they can attract and basically see if the "A" standards would even be interested. It is false hope. To tell you the truth, I am absolutely terrified. Oops, he said yes, oops, he emailed me, oops he is very attractive. The line draws there. Then I start to doubt myself and who I am. There must be alternative meanings for him to like me. (All hypothetical by the way) There must be another reason for why he would like a girl like me, he probably hit the "yes" button by mistake which just so happens to be very closely situated with the "no" button. I so badly want to fall in love; I am desperate for that first kiss that I am so terrified of it. What if it is not up to my standards? I dream just like any other girl that dreams about these things such as wedding days and "first times." I rehearse what I would say, what I would do, but I am terrified that I would be disappointed at those events if they don't live up to my standards
Life is Cruel!
Wow...the things I have thought about these past couple of days I don't know what is provoking these thoughts. I have been really stressed these past few weeks with exams, papers, work, track, and just life in general. Let me start with my dream. I dreamt that I had just up and left school. I showed up unexpectedly and told my family I quit school here and wanted to attend somewhere closer to home. However, when i got home, I immediately began worrying about NMSU. I knew I had made the wrong choice and I was looking for an excuse to get back down here
I'm not alright, I'm broken inside. I cannot wait to go home and be out of school, but the other part of me wants to be here and not leave what I have established. I guess I am just frightened about the future now that the future is creeping on my doorstep. I have created a new beginning down here and have made wonderful friends, but I know I cannot keep living like this, "a student in college who fills her time with work, school, and practice. A girl who cannot wait to get back home to be with her family and friends, but is afraid to leave her new ones. A student who cannot possibly dream of a life outside of school. Someone who is afraid to live because she does not want to get hurt but who lives to love and laugh. A roommate who is too shy to talk to the girl she is living with because she is worried about what to say. A sister who has not done too good of a job being there for her siblings or a daughter who is caught up with her own life to worry about her parents. An employee who works too much that she does not make enough time to be with the people she loves. A fat kid who eats uncontrollably even though she is learning to do otherwise. A hypocrite whenever she tells others ways to take control of their lives when she cannot even control her own. A lost soul who asks for guidance everyday because she cannot seem to walk a straight path. A girl who is happy and carefree, but torn apart inside. An open heart that yearns for a man to love her the way she would love him. A GIRL LIKE ME." I have been a terrible daughter, sister, friend, roommate and Christian.
My roommate recently broke up with her boyfriend. Tonight, she came in with another friend of hers, sick as a dog. Her friend told me she was drinking and starting getting upset about her ex. All I could do was sit on the couch while she lay on the floor of the bathroom puking her guts out into the toilet as her friend held her hair and consoled her. I want to be that type of friend. I have not had a friend close enough that I could do that for. I know Tori and I are great friends and I know how I say that it does not matter that she is much older than I am, but our relationship is too perfect. We never argue, I never get mad at her just to forgive her the next day. I do not think she gets mad at me, at least she never says she does. I know Kara and I are also great friends as well. I really like her and it seems like the friendship I have always wanted, but I do not know if she feels the same. She and Tori are two of my best friends. I can do things with Kara that nobody would even begin to understand. We goof off and have fun and we understand each other. However, there are things that I do not tell them, or anybody for that matter. I want to be able to tell someone all my thoughts, dreams, and deepest secrets. I feel like I can do most of this with the two, but am too afraid to say it all for fear of judgment.
Life is cruel! Once you think you have everything planned out, it changes on you. I have been waiting for a long time now to fall in love. I want to meet a tall, handsome, nice, active man who will want me for me (I know, I know….wishful thinking). Every guy I meet I cannot help but thing "Are you the one?" I am a hopeless romantic. Beggars cannot be choosers right? Well then why am I so picky on who I want to date after all these years of just begging for it to be anyone. Am I pathetic or what? I am 20 years old, never been kissed, let alone gone out on a date with any guy. Am I that repulsive? Do I not attract the guys I am looking for? These dating websites are all a lie. Everyone is there for the same reason: to see whom they can attract and basically see if the "A" standards would even be interested. It is false hope. To tell you the truth, I am absolutely terrified. Oops, he said yes, oops, he emailed me, oops he is very attractive. The line draws there. Then I start to doubt myself and who I am. There must be alternative meanings for him to like me. (All hypothetical by the way) There must be another reason for why he would like a girl like me, he probably hit the "yes" button by mistake which just so happens to be very closely situated with the "no" button. I so badly want to fall in love; I am desperate for that first kiss that I am so terrified of it. What if it is not up to my standards? I dream just like any other girl that dreams about these things such as wedding days and "first times." I rehearse what I would say, what I would do, but I am terrified that I would be disappointed at those events if they don't live up to my standards
Life is Cruel!
Treadmill of Life
Our Savior Lord Jesus created us from one breath and a handful of dust. He gave us everything we ever needed, but we being greedy couldn't settle for anything less. When Eve took a bite of that fruit, it was because she was told by Satan that she would be able to know between good and evil; just how God knew. And that leaves us to being here today.
On this treadmill of life, you are holding your bottle of water trying to quench your thirst. However, it is unquenchable because you are filling your body with the wrong liquids. . In this life, we continue to grow further apart from God and it leaves us feeling dry and thirsty. It is Jesus' blood we need to be drinking.
This world we live in is a broken world. We suffer from pain to anguish, from sickness to death, and we all are wondering that if there is a God that loves us as so many people say He does, then why does He let us suffer the way we do. Why? you ask. Because we chose to be this way. God makes us suffer so that we can find shelter and comfort in His hands. Whenever a baby enters the world, it is crying and yelling. This cry/yell is the baby's way of telling us that the world is broken. It is crying because it knows that the world needs God. It is trying to yell at us to understand.
I became a born again Christian in the eighth grade and since then, my life has never been the same. You could have everything in the world, but still feel a sense of emptiness. It is like trying to fill a cup that has a hole in it. You continue to pour into the cup, but the fluids slowly leak from the hole. The only thing that can fill that hole is Jesus' love. This is what I was going through. I was slipping away fast whenever I saw a nail-pierced hand that was ever so gentle reach down from His cross and pull me up from Satan's grip. It was a difficult struggle for many years and I still have times where I stumble, but I have come to find that Jesus is always there to catch me when I fall. Jesus has loved me enough to rescue me and deliever me from evil.
This leaves me to where I am today, sitting in a Church and glorifying His name. I can feel Him all around me and His prescence within the room. Everybody has their own way of feeling God's prescence in a room. God is like a reflection; you can see it, but you can't quite make it out. For me, God's prescence gives me the chills. There are pulsating chills that almost feel as if Jesus' heart and my heart are beating as One. I can feel Him moving and working through me. Silence screams the truth that our Savior is here with us.
I have sinned and will continue to sin the rest of my life. We all fall short of the glory of God, but God has created the heavens and the earth, the land and the skies, the universe and the galaxies. He named every star that blankets the night sky and every animal, but He still knows my name, and your name. We continue to struggle with the walk in this world and a walk in His. Many of us are sitting on the fence, some of us have one foot in this world and one foot in His path. We need to walk more with the Lord than what is offered in this world. The people in this world will walk in front of or behind you, but our Lord Jesus will walk beside you, holding your hand.
It is the innocent that are killed to cover the guilt. Jesus has died for you and me on the cross to clothe us in His righteousness. I receive the power from drinking His blood and eating His flesh. My power comes from my relationship with Jesus. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the light. He is the promise brought into this world. We are healed by His wounds and all our hope can be found in Heaven. Our hope can be found in the past knowing our Lord Savior died on the cross to pay for our sins so that we can live in eternity in Him in the kingdom He has prepared for us.
Sometimes, it may seem like homework, school, family, work, boy/girlfriend, etc.... will get in the way before God. We need to place Him first because without Him we have nothing.
Let me pray for you!
Dear Heavenly Father, you are my comfort, my rock, and my shelter. Through you I find all my strength, all my love, and all my hope. I pray that you be with whomever may read this. May they too find solace in YOU! Lord, I ask for you to break their heart so that they can allow you to start working in their life. Lord I pray that you open their minds to your word, their ears to your song, their eyes to your prescence, and their hearts to your love. I pray that you use them as your servants to guide lost souls as we once were. I pray that they use the song in their hearts to praise you. I pray that they accept your outstretched hands and walk beside you in this world. Lord, please wrap them in you arms and protect them from the dangers and evils in this world. Give them the strength to continue in this world we are living in today. Lord, if it wasn't for your sacrifice on the cross, we would not be where we are today. I thank you for dying on the cross to pay for my sins so that I can live eternity with you in the kindom you have prepared for me where there is no sin, no sickness or pain, no misery or death but Lord only your love. And it is in Jesus' name I pray. Amen!
On this treadmill of life, you are holding your bottle of water trying to quench your thirst. However, it is unquenchable because you are filling your body with the wrong liquids. . In this life, we continue to grow further apart from God and it leaves us feeling dry and thirsty. It is Jesus' blood we need to be drinking.
This world we live in is a broken world. We suffer from pain to anguish, from sickness to death, and we all are wondering that if there is a God that loves us as so many people say He does, then why does He let us suffer the way we do. Why? you ask. Because we chose to be this way. God makes us suffer so that we can find shelter and comfort in His hands. Whenever a baby enters the world, it is crying and yelling. This cry/yell is the baby's way of telling us that the world is broken. It is crying because it knows that the world needs God. It is trying to yell at us to understand.
I became a born again Christian in the eighth grade and since then, my life has never been the same. You could have everything in the world, but still feel a sense of emptiness. It is like trying to fill a cup that has a hole in it. You continue to pour into the cup, but the fluids slowly leak from the hole. The only thing that can fill that hole is Jesus' love. This is what I was going through. I was slipping away fast whenever I saw a nail-pierced hand that was ever so gentle reach down from His cross and pull me up from Satan's grip. It was a difficult struggle for many years and I still have times where I stumble, but I have come to find that Jesus is always there to catch me when I fall. Jesus has loved me enough to rescue me and deliever me from evil.
This leaves me to where I am today, sitting in a Church and glorifying His name. I can feel Him all around me and His prescence within the room. Everybody has their own way of feeling God's prescence in a room. God is like a reflection; you can see it, but you can't quite make it out. For me, God's prescence gives me the chills. There are pulsating chills that almost feel as if Jesus' heart and my heart are beating as One. I can feel Him moving and working through me. Silence screams the truth that our Savior is here with us.
I have sinned and will continue to sin the rest of my life. We all fall short of the glory of God, but God has created the heavens and the earth, the land and the skies, the universe and the galaxies. He named every star that blankets the night sky and every animal, but He still knows my name, and your name. We continue to struggle with the walk in this world and a walk in His. Many of us are sitting on the fence, some of us have one foot in this world and one foot in His path. We need to walk more with the Lord than what is offered in this world. The people in this world will walk in front of or behind you, but our Lord Jesus will walk beside you, holding your hand.
It is the innocent that are killed to cover the guilt. Jesus has died for you and me on the cross to clothe us in His righteousness. I receive the power from drinking His blood and eating His flesh. My power comes from my relationship with Jesus. Jesus is the way, the truth, and the light. He is the promise brought into this world. We are healed by His wounds and all our hope can be found in Heaven. Our hope can be found in the past knowing our Lord Savior died on the cross to pay for our sins so that we can live in eternity in Him in the kingdom He has prepared for us.
Sometimes, it may seem like homework, school, family, work, boy/girlfriend, etc.... will get in the way before God. We need to place Him first because without Him we have nothing.
Let me pray for you!
Dear Heavenly Father, you are my comfort, my rock, and my shelter. Through you I find all my strength, all my love, and all my hope. I pray that you be with whomever may read this. May they too find solace in YOU! Lord, I ask for you to break their heart so that they can allow you to start working in their life. Lord I pray that you open their minds to your word, their ears to your song, their eyes to your prescence, and their hearts to your love. I pray that you use them as your servants to guide lost souls as we once were. I pray that they use the song in their hearts to praise you. I pray that they accept your outstretched hands and walk beside you in this world. Lord, please wrap them in you arms and protect them from the dangers and evils in this world. Give them the strength to continue in this world we are living in today. Lord, if it wasn't for your sacrifice on the cross, we would not be where we are today. I thank you for dying on the cross to pay for my sins so that I can live eternity with you in the kindom you have prepared for me where there is no sin, no sickness or pain, no misery or death but Lord only your love. And it is in Jesus' name I pray. Amen!
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